This might sound weird but hell yeah it happened to me. Whatever I'm going to say is a true account of my experience. For if I lie, may I get struck with lightning. This is serious and in now way am I trying to diss her, I'm just trying to set a warning sign here not to break up anyone’s relationship and also don't do what I did. Whatever things you would like to tell your date, be it hurtful or not, just tell him/her. Else, you'll end up in deep shit. The reason why I decide to make an entry about my so call personal life is because I have to since that girl have been making up 'nursery rhymes’ too much. So this is a one time thing. No more about me after this. I hate self advertising.

Well, I knew this girl, Hafizah a.k.a Eza. Her blog is here. Few months back, we kinda dated but I realized she’s not the one for me. My mistake is here. I didn't want to tell her that I don't want to continue dating her. Because I want to change, I don't want to tell people straight in the face that I don't like them anymore. Maybe I might find a better way to tell her that. Well, time passes and I still couldn't figure out a way. She kept asking me out and I have to give all sorts of reasons not to go out with her.
When I realized it was too late to tell her the truth, I was left with 2 choices. Just bloody tell her and she may have grudges against me or I just keep quiet and move on with my life. Weirdly, unlike my old self, I decided to move on. Just talk to her when she calls and act like everything’s fine. While that happened, I was dating one of my angel, Mas. There’s nothing more comfortable than dating someone I'm close with. I would love to talk about Mas but I just find it too romantic and too personal to talk about. Now back to the topic. So my conscience says I fucked up and to make things worst, I thought I was smart enough to handle it. Yeah… I wasn't smart at all because I told Eza about Mas. If it’s not a big deal to anyone, it is a big deal to me because both of them are actually friends. This is the part that really got me saying this to myself, Fuck you Eddy. Yeap, I hurled vulgar at myself quite a few times. The first vulgarity to me is because I fucked up. The second one is because I'm stupid enough to hurl vulgar at myself. The third one is because I actually hurled vulgar at me for hurling vulgar at me. The fourth one is… arrghh… you get the point.

Few weeks had passed and I'm happy with Mas but she wasn't too happy with me because Eza has been feeding her with her own 'nursery rhyme’. Woah… Now things got really messed up. I told Eza about Mas and now Eza is trying to break us up. I haven't found out about it yet until Eza asked me out one day. And I thought it’s a good idea coz I finally really want to tell her everything from the start. So after work, I went to meet her at Jurong East. Then suddenly… Jeng jeng jeng… Mas appeared out of nowhere. Seems like Eza have fed enough 'nursery rhyme’ to her and this is her grand finale to get back at me. After a few quarrels and such, I told Eza to go. Then Mas and I talked. I apologized and told her everything. And I didn't lie this time. Hell yeah she doesn't believe me thanks to Eza’s 'nursery rhymes’ but that’s not the point now. The point is, Eza kept feeding Mas with her 'nursery rhymes’ even after that incident. Eza tagged my girlfriend’s blog with her 'nursery rhymes’. She called me using different numbers and different names. Seems like to me, she’s trying her best effort to destroy me and my girlfriend.

Ok, I know it’s my fault from the start. I fucked up. But come on… you're a big girl, Eza. You don't have to do all this. You think I will come crawling back to you after you finally break us up? Lucky for you, Eza, I sure would love to cut your throat but I've learnt to be patient. Anyone could've easily murder you. Let this be over okay. I'm sorry that I've hurt you. Just please stop messaging me, stop calling me, stop making up stories and most of all, stop talking to my girlfriend. I might just file a civil suit against you for stalking me. If you think you have a talent for making up stories, please write a book. I don't want anymore nonsense from you. One more time you do anything to defame me, I will make you pay in cash, in court. And if you feel like defaming me again, think about my line of job. I do websites and market them. I can definitely market your future website if you want to make me. I know I'm not hot nor am I not good looking and I've never claimed I am. There’s so many other artists you can stalk. So go ahead and stalk them. I'd be more than happy. You might lose weight in the process.
I remembered I've broke up someone’s relationship once. So karma got me. I deserved it. But I hope mine doesn't. Let’s move on…

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